Wednesday, January 09, 2013

Getting a Little Bit Personal

I've been sitting here wracking my brain about what to blog about. That's the problem with simple, plain projects, they look exactly the same day after day. I could take another picture of the stripey sock but honestly there's about one more stripe. I could take another picture of the green shawl but it looks like a slightly larger blob of green right now. I'm not even on the second skein yet.

I thought maybe I should start a new project to show you something interesting. No, by the time I wound the yarn, I knew what I wanted it to be but I can't find the pattern right now so I guess that has to wait.

I even resorted to digging out the UFO (Unfinished Objects) bin to see if I could finish something up quick and show you that. Nope, nothing that's quick to finish or that I really want to work on right now. I guess that plan is out the window too.

The husband hasn't done anything funny and the pets are napping, not doing any strange antics so what exactly am I supposed to blog about.

Well, look out because it's going to get a teensy bit personal for a bit. This week has been a bear so far. You know that I'm gluten free because I talk about it here often and you may or may not know that one of the side effects I experience when being glutened is anxiety. Well, this week I had anxiety without gluten. It wasn't fun and it wasn't pretty. Last evening, the doorbell rang and I nearly had a heart attack. For most of the last two days I would rather have peeled my skin off than feel it. I wanted to hide and I wanted to not have to deal with it any more. I'm so thankful to have a very supportive family and it was mostly because of my wonderful husband that I got through it but I just want to say this: If you are feeling this way, it's not normal, it's not okay and you do need help. Whatever that means. For some people it's therapists and medications, for some people it's alternative things but ultimately, you are not alone, and help is out there. Please seek help if you need it.


JessicaM said...

Hugs! and thank you for sharing. It's too easy to remain silent about anxiety, depression, etc. I hope you are finding some good options that work for you. You are in my thoughts and prayers!

JennaKate said...

Ditto to Jessica's comment. Thanks for shining a light on the fact that many people have struggles and that it's essentially to use all resources available to address them. Sending good vibes your way - let's have a knitting date again soon!